Revelations

I've written before about that soul stirring experience of feeling connected to your true calling. I usually refer to it as the fire in my belly. That delicious energy that courses through you and makes you feel you can do anything, just anything if you could harness it for long enough. Unfortunately for me I tend to let it slip away and instead I'm awash in the pervasive mistruth that it can be done later and it won't fade. 

I had this moment of clarity today. Some refer to it as the ah-ha moment, connecting to source and what have you. I felt it like a lucidity so bright and crystallized I was in awe of it. I have been plagued with this wishy-washy non committal attitude towards almost everything in my life. I saw it in my writing-- this constant battle of what I want verses what I have, and a struggle of spirit to determine if I should continue along certain paths I discovered were laden with landmines aiming to destroy my goals. 

But it seemed so simple today. When I finally decided to stop being afraid of making decisions! Just like that the agonizing doubt that felt heavy in my chest vanished like vapors into the sky.  Isn't it true that sometimes the easiest truths to recognize are the hardest to digest? I don't want to be a girl so paralyzed with fear of what could've been. Or what will be. Maybe its generational or societal. How many of us question and doubt our steps maybe our whole lives through? Who's to say that whats be found on the other side of uncertainty isn't the stuff of magic? Here's what I'm suggesting today, whatever is stopping you or calling you, answer it with as much of that fire in your belly you can harness. Maybe it's a career change, a move, a muddled love affair or just a choice to be yourself for once.  When you commit to finally doing what your heart has been urging you to do all along everything falls away that was holding you back and when it's finally given a chance to grow wings trust me, you'll soar.