Ever feel like you are constantly making yourself promises and premises that you seldom adhere to? And I don't mean a diet. Well OK- that works for this example too. It's so very frustrating to feel like you are always getting in your own way! If I could have an out of body experience I would use it to slap myself in the face and say LETS GO! I really need to get a move on things.
Yes, I am becoming extremely proficient in the career of stay at home mom. I can feed two screaming children breakfast before 10 am (on a good day) and basically, the rest of the day is the same, feeding the hungry little ones at the appropriate times while simultaneously cleaning and rearranging the ever messy house. UGH. I do love to spend time with the kids and with my bed during the day (nap time!) But I'm starting to feel like my mind is turning as mushy and vanilla as Leila's gross baby food. I really wish I had Stephenie Meyers' number. Maybe she can explain to me how you go about writing huge ass books while caring for children and actually have the mental focus to write something good enough for movies. I'm looking for my muse. I'm thinking about writing workshops and reading as many great American novels as I can in the mean time..good books in, good books out? We'll see.
